Brought up by over barring mother, who is unintentionally (or deliberately) brain washing and feeding me with the voice of reason, since I was 3 years old, it gives me privilege to embrace and enjoy life without too much messing it up! Don’t get me wrong guys, I love my mom very deeply and I’m grateful for all of her hard works successfully brain washed me since I was little =)
So when most of the girls were having a hard time undergo the transition realized that there’s no Prince charming and Fairy godmother who are kindly and bravely enough saving Cinderella from the bad witches.
And it turned up that Cindi-fuckin-rella was freeing herself from the bad bitches with the help of Tyra Bank total makeover into independent-strong-well dressed woman who knows exactly what she wants and her right! As the result there are so many of Prince charming out there who just go “gaga” over her.
Of course in the reality Cindi-fuckin-rella and the Prince Charming were not just instantly happily ever after because life it’s full of ups and downs, so they need extra hard work to keep their marriage together! Obviously with the help of several marriage counselors and couple of affairs on the side =)
Since I learned this fact in my early childhood, I could pass my late 20’s smoothly without any major teenage drama, such as: brokenhearted, crisis identity, pregnancy, drugs or alcohols abused! Thanks to you, mom =)
But sometimes, having reasonable thought most of the time could be so tiring and damn boriiiiing….. Feel like living in sterile world!!!! Therefore to release a bit of “my sanity tension” from time to time, I created an alter ego. Well it doesn’t mean I have a crazy split personality though!
Like Superman created Clark Kent character in order to live among the citizens of Metropolis without arousing suspicion or Bruce Wayne created Batman character in order to disguise himself for the purposes of fighting crimes.
I created Tante M as my alter ego in order to get out of my comfort zone and help me dealing with my fears. Basically Tante M is adventurous side of Mika!!!
By having said that “Tante M” loves living in dangerous places, traveling to remote areas, get lost in translation, trying to learn and understand how the world works also daring to speak her minds openly and rationally where Mika character is more soft spoken and not trying to provoke others with what she has in minds.
Tante M character is based on my deeply admiration of Samantha character in Sex and the City. I had to admit that Sex and the City series become my bible to maturity and womanhood since it opens my eyes to different possibilities of embracing my womanhood and speaking my minds out loud.
I admired Samantha’s because of she knows exactly what she wants, how to get what she wants and she never accepted “NO” for the answer! However behind her “wild and firm” surfaces, she’s truly loyal to her friends and someone that her friends could count on. Samantha also has intriguing body language that I found it so classy =)
Of Course like Samantha’s, “Tante M” character is also sassy, classy and fearless lady who doesn’t like settle for less!!!
However unlike Samantha’s who is famous for her appetite to younger man or as a man eater. “Tante M” is more looking for intellectual intercourse and she's an adventure seekers who likes to challenge her-self to be out of her comfort zone and be more truly to her inner selves. Whereas some people need their friends, family, boyfriend, gay-friends, or girlfriends as their emotional safety net.
In order to transform to be Tante M, like Clark Kent has to take off his glasses then ripped out his shirt off or Bruce Wayne go to bat cave and transformed into Batman, I just need to unbutton couple of my shirt, shows a bit of “my hidden asset", let my hairs down, walk straight with my chin held high then lets the adrenalin rushes and kick in all over my veins and claws … MEAOOWWWW … All of a sudden I felt fabulous and transformed into TANTE M!!!!....
“It’s a cat, it’s a cougar … no, no it’s TANTE M!!!" HAHAHHAHA……
Kamis, 25 November 2010
Sabtu, 20 November 2010
RELIGION
Religion is eight letters of word that never has been the subject of interests in my family discussion, it is not because we explicitly tried so hard to avoid it but somehow it wasn’t our main concern.
While the other parents were busy ordering their children to pray every day and ask them go to the mosque or church or temple etc (it depends of their religions). My mom was busy teaching us the reality of life and the life survived techniques (her famous 10 commandments) since she beliefs what important is to create the heaven on earth!
When I asked my mom why she never brings up the religion issues or ordering us to pray, my mom simply answered: “religion is something personal for everybody and because It’s so personal only you and god who knows it”.
I was unsatisfied with my mom answer and I asked her again: “How do I know what kind of religion that’s suitable for me?’’… My mom replied: “Don’t worry, God will shows you the way when you are ready”. Honestly that answer didn’t help either just gave me more confusion than the clarity.
For a while I forgot that issues and I didn’t bother to ask or find the answer since again it wasn’t my main concern, until my mom was turned 45 -- Out of the blue, she found gods in the comfort of Christianity but the nice thing was she never inquires or preaches us the words of Christianity and she keep it for herself, just likes she said “personal”. Then I realized I guess my mom was right all along!!!
Since I was a child, I always 100% beliefs the existence of the higher power out there that creates, assists, and protects mankind from any bad things happened even though at the moment I’m still trying to create the heaven on earth.
As for religion, I always think religion is like vehicle; their task is only assisting mankind to reach their destination in safe and comfortable way.
Some people like to use Mercedes Benz because their luxuries interior, so you can pamper yourself in the painless journey. Some people choose Volvo, because their safety reason. The others like to ride BMW because of their speeds limit, so you can reach your destination in a fast way. Again it’s about personal chooses.
Out of the vehicles that they offered in the market today, I preferred to use my two legs as my vehicle since God creates 2 legs in mankind as basic tool to reach their destination and while I'm walking; I give myself a time to engage and appreciated my surroundings. I also rely on my own strength, I become close with my inner-core, self beliefs!!! Unlike using a vehicle -- sometimes people is attend to more focus on the technology or benefit of vehicle offered and they forget the real function of the vehicle in the first place.
While the other parents were busy ordering their children to pray every day and ask them go to the mosque or church or temple etc (it depends of their religions). My mom was busy teaching us the reality of life and the life survived techniques (her famous 10 commandments) since she beliefs what important is to create the heaven on earth!
When I asked my mom why she never brings up the religion issues or ordering us to pray, my mom simply answered: “religion is something personal for everybody and because It’s so personal only you and god who knows it”.
I was unsatisfied with my mom answer and I asked her again: “How do I know what kind of religion that’s suitable for me?’’… My mom replied: “Don’t worry, God will shows you the way when you are ready”. Honestly that answer didn’t help either just gave me more confusion than the clarity.
For a while I forgot that issues and I didn’t bother to ask or find the answer since again it wasn’t my main concern, until my mom was turned 45 -- Out of the blue, she found gods in the comfort of Christianity but the nice thing was she never inquires or preaches us the words of Christianity and she keep it for herself, just likes she said “personal”. Then I realized I guess my mom was right all along!!!
Since I was a child, I always 100% beliefs the existence of the higher power out there that creates, assists, and protects mankind from any bad things happened even though at the moment I’m still trying to create the heaven on earth.
As for religion, I always think religion is like vehicle; their task is only assisting mankind to reach their destination in safe and comfortable way.
Some people like to use Mercedes Benz because their luxuries interior, so you can pamper yourself in the painless journey. Some people choose Volvo, because their safety reason. The others like to ride BMW because of their speeds limit, so you can reach your destination in a fast way. Again it’s about personal chooses.
Out of the vehicles that they offered in the market today, I preferred to use my two legs as my vehicle since God creates 2 legs in mankind as basic tool to reach their destination and while I'm walking; I give myself a time to engage and appreciated my surroundings. I also rely on my own strength, I become close with my inner-core, self beliefs!!! Unlike using a vehicle -- sometimes people is attend to more focus on the technology or benefit of vehicle offered and they forget the real function of the vehicle in the first place.
FLYING TANDEM GONE TERRIBLY WRONG
“What will you do if your tandem partner is weighted you down and there are no safety parachute left to safe both of you?! ... Free falling together or cut her lines and safe yourself instead?”
In my 10 years of flying tandem or solo -- traveling with partners or buddies or by myself, ALMOST never EVER I had terrible experiences until recently when I was traveling in Myanmar.
I always called myself as responsible budget traveler with a lot of attitude and style, which means even though I travel with specific amount of budget to spend, however ... in the same time I keep maintaining my certain standard of style and conveniences, as well as ... being responsible by do not give a burden to the other fellow travelers and do not leaving a foot print to the places that I visited besides a tons of great pictures, good times and little souvenir for beloved people back home.
Just like my travel motto that I quoted from my close friend: “you can be cheap but not easy or you can be easy but never be both”
So when Vero (my friend who is working in Yangon at the moment) informed me about Myanmar’s situation and condition, from visa regulation until the country restriction likes; there’s no ATM machine, we can’t use credit card or western union and avoided talking politics to local peoples because you will never know whom you will be encounter along the way. There are so many undercover government secret agents among society.
Consequently I did my home work by prepared myself to act like ordinary traveler who just want to have a great time and counted how much budget that I will be need to spend. Based on my past experiences traveled around South East Asia for 10 -15 days, we only need around 5 million IDR excluded flight ticket of course.
The original plan was traveling with Vero for a week after that I will continued the trip by myself for another week.
We decided to start our journey from Mandalay (because of Thaung Byone Festival “The biggest gay festival in South East Asia” .... Ehm, sounds great huh? a bunch of gay guy, party, and booze).... Then Bagan (the city of thousand temples and pagoda’s), Inle Lake (the romantic getaway over the lake view) after that I will continued by myself to Kalaw (famous for tracking destination) and Ngapali (simply the bitch areas ... Upsh I mean beach area).
Somehow along the way, my other friend here in Jakarta is interested to join the trip, which is fine by us (Vero and I) ... given the fact that we thought, we “knew“ this girl and again “the more the merrier!!!”
Unfortunately WE WERE TOTALLY WRONG!!! … First of all: we absolutely don’t have any ideas how this girl will behaved outside her comfort zone, secondly: the more can be crowded and suffocated, especially when the person that we were travelling with dumped all of her financial and emotional baggage on us without prior notice, it just felt likes, we’ve been “ambushed” that leaves us breathless and speechless.
Although before the trip I did brief her rule of Mika’s 101 famous back packing travels (To whom that might interested to have the manual … it’s available now in GRAMEDIA!!! Hahahhaha….) -- things that we will dealing with, all the reading material concerning the places that we’re going to visit as well as the list of the things that she needs to pack basically I look alike travel agent that make sure that everything are set and done before the trip.
Again unfortunately she didn’t even bother to read all the things that I sent her because she thinks she can always rely on us (Vero and I ... Well, I love you but I love me even more ... so think again!!!)
All of a sudden Vero and I trapped in situation like we were traveling with a “big baby” where we had to take cake and constantly reminded her things that she needs to do since she can’t think for herself.
Seriously if I could choose -- I feel much better traveling with actual baby because somehow in the back of my mind I’m fully aware that baby was meant to be annoying and craving for a lot of attention so at least I will well prepared myself for it (read and watch nanny 101, I guess) but “big baby". OMG, I don’t think so!!! Unless, I got paid… Honey, please read the first manual of Mika’s 101 famous back packing travels –“you can be cheap but not easy or you can be easy but never be both”.
Anyway here are the best parts… She did not only corrupt our mental with her lack of inability to act and think in the same time but she also messed up with our traveling budget, because of her unorganized plan to change her flight ticket back to Indonesia earlier in the last minute that costs her the price of a new flight ticket plus she even didn’t bother to check her financial situation and again rely on us (borrow our money which we only brought just enough for ourselves).
I guess some people are just meant to be as social gathering friend but it’s not as the traveling mate, because finding travel mate is like finding a good sport shoes, it has to be comfortable, affordable and you can rely on in any situation.
Thanks god,Vero and I shared the same habit of travel and dark sense of humor, so we could passed the days with laughter to ease our burden. I remembered one night in Bagan, during our last dinner (meanwhile the other” friend of mine” was sick and stayed at the hotel room) we joked around that this would be our last supper since in the days to come we have to really squeeze our budget, BADLY!!! and it did.
For the first time in my life I had to counted every penny of my money make sure that I had enough money for accommodation, transportation and the food. I never feel so poor, like I felt that day… Not because I don’t have money but because I lead my money in the name of responsibility and good conscious that ended up messing up with my traveling budget.
Back to the first question in my article: “What will you do if your tandem partner is weighted you down and there are no safety parachute left to safe both of you?! Free falling together or cut her lines and safe yourself instead?”
I’m definitely not going to free falling together, I might just send her back to Yangon earlier by 15 hours bumpy, dusty, bus ride with 40,000 IDR in her hand (just enough for taxi cost for bus station to Vero’s apartment) then ask her to refund her flight ticket from Inle Lake to Yangon so she can use that money to survive in Yangon before she is heading back to Jakarta.
Do I traumatize with flying tandem? Absolutely NOT!!! One bad experience can’t justify my future flying tandem. So far I had a great tandem partners -- they are not only well equipped with emotional and financial stability but also performed as my personal GPS, porter (umbrella boy), bodyguard and private donor or even sponsor =)
However thanks to her, I learned a lot from this trip, such as:
Lesson number 1: RESPONSIBILITY and GOOD CONSCIOUS are not meant to be together =)
Lesson number 2: How to get a grip of a person that you don’t like without losing your sanity. OMG, you don’t know how many ideas that I had…. Plenty!!! I even think to create a blog called www.get-a-grip-of-her.com
Lesson number 3: How to survive traveling with very tight budget without flashing “my two big assets”!!!! (Gee, that could be my next book title I guess! hahahahaha....)
Will I be traveling with her again? HELLO PEOPLE, didn’t I learn my lesson?!!! =)
Honestly with all the things that I’d been going through, deep down inside I still believed and think, she’s a nice person with a lot of potential to over! It just I don’t need to be the one who discovered =) I really hope she learns her lesson to be more responsible to herself and the people around her. Moreover I wish all the best for her in the future.
As for the other friends who might interested to join me in my next back packing adventure; (I was thinking next year will be Philippine, New Zealand or Nepal) ... Don’t be afraid, I don’t bite but I might ditch you in the middle of nowhere if you act like that! HEHEHEHEHE ....
Of course, you are most welcome to join me however bear in mind PLEASE be a responsible traveler by not leaving your footprint, emotional, and financial baggage behind because I can’t be your travel mate, babysitter, parents, or sugar mama in the same time!!!...
In my 10 years of flying tandem or solo -- traveling with partners or buddies or by myself, ALMOST never EVER I had terrible experiences until recently when I was traveling in Myanmar.
I always called myself as responsible budget traveler with a lot of attitude and style, which means even though I travel with specific amount of budget to spend, however ... in the same time I keep maintaining my certain standard of style and conveniences, as well as ... being responsible by do not give a burden to the other fellow travelers and do not leaving a foot print to the places that I visited besides a tons of great pictures, good times and little souvenir for beloved people back home.
Just like my travel motto that I quoted from my close friend: “you can be cheap but not easy or you can be easy but never be both”
So when Vero (my friend who is working in Yangon at the moment) informed me about Myanmar’s situation and condition, from visa regulation until the country restriction likes; there’s no ATM machine, we can’t use credit card or western union and avoided talking politics to local peoples because you will never know whom you will be encounter along the way. There are so many undercover government secret agents among society.
Consequently I did my home work by prepared myself to act like ordinary traveler who just want to have a great time and counted how much budget that I will be need to spend. Based on my past experiences traveled around South East Asia for 10 -15 days, we only need around 5 million IDR excluded flight ticket of course.
The original plan was traveling with Vero for a week after that I will continued the trip by myself for another week.
We decided to start our journey from Mandalay (because of Thaung Byone Festival “The biggest gay festival in South East Asia” .... Ehm, sounds great huh? a bunch of gay guy, party, and booze).... Then Bagan (the city of thousand temples and pagoda’s), Inle Lake (the romantic getaway over the lake view) after that I will continued by myself to Kalaw (famous for tracking destination) and Ngapali (simply the bitch areas ... Upsh I mean beach area).
Somehow along the way, my other friend here in Jakarta is interested to join the trip, which is fine by us (Vero and I) ... given the fact that we thought, we “knew“ this girl and again “the more the merrier!!!”
Unfortunately WE WERE TOTALLY WRONG!!! … First of all: we absolutely don’t have any ideas how this girl will behaved outside her comfort zone, secondly: the more can be crowded and suffocated, especially when the person that we were travelling with dumped all of her financial and emotional baggage on us without prior notice, it just felt likes, we’ve been “ambushed” that leaves us breathless and speechless.
Although before the trip I did brief her rule of Mika’s 101 famous back packing travels (To whom that might interested to have the manual … it’s available now in GRAMEDIA!!! Hahahhaha….) -- things that we will dealing with, all the reading material concerning the places that we’re going to visit as well as the list of the things that she needs to pack basically I look alike travel agent that make sure that everything are set and done before the trip.
Again unfortunately she didn’t even bother to read all the things that I sent her because she thinks she can always rely on us (Vero and I ... Well, I love you but I love me even more ... so think again!!!)
All of a sudden Vero and I trapped in situation like we were traveling with a “big baby” where we had to take cake and constantly reminded her things that she needs to do since she can’t think for herself.
Seriously if I could choose -- I feel much better traveling with actual baby because somehow in the back of my mind I’m fully aware that baby was meant to be annoying and craving for a lot of attention so at least I will well prepared myself for it (read and watch nanny 101, I guess) but “big baby". OMG, I don’t think so!!! Unless, I got paid… Honey, please read the first manual of Mika’s 101 famous back packing travels –“you can be cheap but not easy or you can be easy but never be both”.
Anyway here are the best parts… She did not only corrupt our mental with her lack of inability to act and think in the same time but she also messed up with our traveling budget, because of her unorganized plan to change her flight ticket back to Indonesia earlier in the last minute that costs her the price of a new flight ticket plus she even didn’t bother to check her financial situation and again rely on us (borrow our money which we only brought just enough for ourselves).
I guess some people are just meant to be as social gathering friend but it’s not as the traveling mate, because finding travel mate is like finding a good sport shoes, it has to be comfortable, affordable and you can rely on in any situation.
Thanks god,Vero and I shared the same habit of travel and dark sense of humor, so we could passed the days with laughter to ease our burden. I remembered one night in Bagan, during our last dinner (meanwhile the other” friend of mine” was sick and stayed at the hotel room) we joked around that this would be our last supper since in the days to come we have to really squeeze our budget, BADLY!!! and it did.
For the first time in my life I had to counted every penny of my money make sure that I had enough money for accommodation, transportation and the food. I never feel so poor, like I felt that day… Not because I don’t have money but because I lead my money in the name of responsibility and good conscious that ended up messing up with my traveling budget.
Back to the first question in my article: “What will you do if your tandem partner is weighted you down and there are no safety parachute left to safe both of you?! Free falling together or cut her lines and safe yourself instead?”
I’m definitely not going to free falling together, I might just send her back to Yangon earlier by 15 hours bumpy, dusty, bus ride with 40,000 IDR in her hand (just enough for taxi cost for bus station to Vero’s apartment) then ask her to refund her flight ticket from Inle Lake to Yangon so she can use that money to survive in Yangon before she is heading back to Jakarta.
Do I traumatize with flying tandem? Absolutely NOT!!! One bad experience can’t justify my future flying tandem. So far I had a great tandem partners -- they are not only well equipped with emotional and financial stability but also performed as my personal GPS, porter (umbrella boy), bodyguard and private donor or even sponsor =)
However thanks to her, I learned a lot from this trip, such as:
Lesson number 1: RESPONSIBILITY and GOOD CONSCIOUS are not meant to be together =)
Lesson number 2: How to get a grip of a person that you don’t like without losing your sanity. OMG, you don’t know how many ideas that I had…. Plenty!!! I even think to create a blog called www.get-a-grip-of-her.com
Lesson number 3: How to survive traveling with very tight budget without flashing “my two big assets”!!!! (Gee, that could be my next book title I guess! hahahahaha....)
Will I be traveling with her again? HELLO PEOPLE, didn’t I learn my lesson?!!! =)
Honestly with all the things that I’d been going through, deep down inside I still believed and think, she’s a nice person with a lot of potential to over! It just I don’t need to be the one who discovered =) I really hope she learns her lesson to be more responsible to herself and the people around her. Moreover I wish all the best for her in the future.
As for the other friends who might interested to join me in my next back packing adventure; (I was thinking next year will be Philippine, New Zealand or Nepal) ... Don’t be afraid, I don’t bite but I might ditch you in the middle of nowhere if you act like that! HEHEHEHEHE ....
Of course, you are most welcome to join me however bear in mind PLEASE be a responsible traveler by not leaving your footprint, emotional, and financial baggage behind because I can’t be your travel mate, babysitter, parents, or sugar mama in the same time!!!...
SERIES OF RENUNGAN BIATCH
I dedicated these words for all BIATCH out there who are just unlucky and will be get lucky in life SOON!.... YES, YOU WILL!!!!!
PART I....
Life is hard and we died, but before God tossed us to hell for the bad deeds that we did, have a little bit of fun and live the dreams!!!!!.... I know its suck, but that’s the reality of life!!! Sometimes we just have to eat it raw and shallow it quick ... just likes vitamin, boost our energy and increase our mental capacities.
The obstacles that emerges in our life, most of the time it likes the blessing in disguised! And by period of times, we just realized the hidden treasure that we supposed to gain out of it by connecting the dots!!!
The bottom line is, don’t be such a drama queen or king with the obstacles that may occur in our life ... because the best drama will be on screen where the players get paid and laid! Not off screen, unpaid and didn’t get any!!! That would be an epic of disaster!!!!!
So every times you’re feeling down: just put on your LADY GAGA face (poker face), chin up, boobs up (if you have boobs of course!) and walk straight ... then say this: "THE BIATCH IS BACK!!!!!" ....
Good luck guys and be adventurous with life!!
PART II ...
Behind the powerful man, there’s a strong woman standing!!!
Behind a strong woman standing, there's fabulous gay man support!!!
And to be a strong woman, you have to be a super BIATCH with a lot of attitude!!!
PART III ....
To be A BIATCH or NOT to be a biatch is a personal choice, which is a part of mankind privileges that given by god. But sometimes no matter how careful and well calculates we live our life; somehow the world induces us to be a biatch, to get things done! Because the minute we settle for less than we deserve, we get even less than we settled for and that would be A REAL BIATCH!!
Anyway guys when the time gets tough and we had to make a choice-- just remember this: there’s no good girl gone bad, just good girl found their inner BIATCH!!!!
Good luck finds your inner BIATCH!!! .....
PART IV
A friend of mine once told me that you will get what do you need but it’s not what do you want, because what do you want sometimes it’s not what do you need.
The question will be how if what do we need, it is not what do we want?
To get a good answer of that question, I used my own experience as examples!!! When I was going up I always want to have a simple life like any other ordinary Indonesian girls; finished my studied, work in art department – have my own workshop if it’s possible, married to romantic guys (I always have fantasy of Italian man since I love the food, coffee, their culture, arts, the fashion and the mafia – I know it’s sound ridiculous, huh?), then having bambino’s, living in quiet place when there so much nature around so I could breath the fresh air every day and twice in a year travel to an exotic places for holiday.
But GUESS WHAT? Life thinks that is not what I needed!!! It turned up instead getting the romantic Mr. Italian guy, I got Mr. German that’s so straight and up front but he gave me a big space to grow – figured out who am I really is and that makes me realized, maybe I don’t need Mr. romantic guy after all, what I need is Mr. that could shows me the real me and accepted me the way I’m.
Concerning the work in the art department... I got better than what I could settled for!!!! I got opportunity to work in the art of communications which I could also help others along the way!!! worked as communication for aid agencies gives me an opportunity to disseminate a message for the unfortunates people that’s losing their voice, so they can be heard and rcognized!!!
In term of living condition and an exotic destination, I got combination of both and on the top of that, I got paid for doing something that I love!!! Again working for aid agencies give me chance to be in the area that most people never dreams of to visit like Afghanistan, Aceh, and East Timor!
Not forget to mention I met interesting peoples, friends and experiences different thing in the process and that was priceless!!!! How many people in Indonesia could have the same experience like me, maybe over 225 million of Indonesia peoples only 5 % of it have the same opportunity and being part of 5% of it, make me feel fortunate and blessed!!!!!
Regarding the bambinos or children, I guess at the moment I have to settle with a dog maybe gradually it will turn in to be baby! Hey, I still have a time ....
Back to the question, how if what do we need, it is not what do we want? my answer will be maybe what do you need is a part of what do you want after all, it’s just the Universe or God or the Mighty power channel it into a real thing, because sometimes what do you want can be so unreal and imaginary since we so caught out in the dream and forget to keep it real.
Anyway guys keep on makes the list of what do you want but make it real, not just imaginative, because that definitely is not what you need!!!!
KEEP IT SIMPLE AND REAL!!!!! ...
PART I....
Life is hard and we died, but before God tossed us to hell for the bad deeds that we did, have a little bit of fun and live the dreams!!!!!.... I know its suck, but that’s the reality of life!!! Sometimes we just have to eat it raw and shallow it quick ... just likes vitamin, boost our energy and increase our mental capacities.
The obstacles that emerges in our life, most of the time it likes the blessing in disguised! And by period of times, we just realized the hidden treasure that we supposed to gain out of it by connecting the dots!!!
The bottom line is, don’t be such a drama queen or king with the obstacles that may occur in our life ... because the best drama will be on screen where the players get paid and laid! Not off screen, unpaid and didn’t get any!!! That would be an epic of disaster!!!!!
So every times you’re feeling down: just put on your LADY GAGA face (poker face), chin up, boobs up (if you have boobs of course!) and walk straight ... then say this: "THE BIATCH IS BACK!!!!!" ....
Good luck guys and be adventurous with life!!
PART II ...
Behind the powerful man, there’s a strong woman standing!!!
Behind a strong woman standing, there's fabulous gay man support!!!
And to be a strong woman, you have to be a super BIATCH with a lot of attitude!!!
PART III ....
To be A BIATCH or NOT to be a biatch is a personal choice, which is a part of mankind privileges that given by god. But sometimes no matter how careful and well calculates we live our life; somehow the world induces us to be a biatch, to get things done! Because the minute we settle for less than we deserve, we get even less than we settled for and that would be A REAL BIATCH!!
Anyway guys when the time gets tough and we had to make a choice-- just remember this: there’s no good girl gone bad, just good girl found their inner BIATCH!!!!
Good luck finds your inner BIATCH!!! .....
PART IV
A friend of mine once told me that you will get what do you need but it’s not what do you want, because what do you want sometimes it’s not what do you need.
The question will be how if what do we need, it is not what do we want?
To get a good answer of that question, I used my own experience as examples!!! When I was going up I always want to have a simple life like any other ordinary Indonesian girls; finished my studied, work in art department – have my own workshop if it’s possible, married to romantic guys (I always have fantasy of Italian man since I love the food, coffee, their culture, arts, the fashion and the mafia – I know it’s sound ridiculous, huh?), then having bambino’s, living in quiet place when there so much nature around so I could breath the fresh air every day and twice in a year travel to an exotic places for holiday.
But GUESS WHAT? Life thinks that is not what I needed!!! It turned up instead getting the romantic Mr. Italian guy, I got Mr. German that’s so straight and up front but he gave me a big space to grow – figured out who am I really is and that makes me realized, maybe I don’t need Mr. romantic guy after all, what I need is Mr. that could shows me the real me and accepted me the way I’m.
Concerning the work in the art department... I got better than what I could settled for!!!! I got opportunity to work in the art of communications which I could also help others along the way!!! worked as communication for aid agencies gives me an opportunity to disseminate a message for the unfortunates people that’s losing their voice, so they can be heard and rcognized!!!
In term of living condition and an exotic destination, I got combination of both and on the top of that, I got paid for doing something that I love!!! Again working for aid agencies give me chance to be in the area that most people never dreams of to visit like Afghanistan, Aceh, and East Timor!
Not forget to mention I met interesting peoples, friends and experiences different thing in the process and that was priceless!!!! How many people in Indonesia could have the same experience like me, maybe over 225 million of Indonesia peoples only 5 % of it have the same opportunity and being part of 5% of it, make me feel fortunate and blessed!!!!!
Regarding the bambinos or children, I guess at the moment I have to settle with a dog maybe gradually it will turn in to be baby! Hey, I still have a time ....
Back to the question, how if what do we need, it is not what do we want? my answer will be maybe what do you need is a part of what do you want after all, it’s just the Universe or God or the Mighty power channel it into a real thing, because sometimes what do you want can be so unreal and imaginary since we so caught out in the dream and forget to keep it real.
Anyway guys keep on makes the list of what do you want but make it real, not just imaginative, because that definitely is not what you need!!!!
KEEP IT SIMPLE AND REAL!!!!! ...
Jumat, 19 November 2010
BEAUTY COMES IN DIFFERENT SIZES
As a person who used to be size 0 emphasized on used to be =) and recently stuck in size 8-10 (it depends on the brands, of course!) If people ask me, do I like to be back in size 0? Are you kidding me! Stupid question, can you ask me again? (HELL YEAH!!!!)...
But do I like to pay the price of beauty; by starved myself to dead and be a gym rat? .... Wait a minutes darling,I didn't sign up for that!!!! So I guess I just have to work on with what I've been given, that means "My finest asset" and I try my best to flaunt it =)
Living in size 8-10, makes me realized and learn so much about myself; how my body works and my personalities -- "my strength and my weakness". Somehow along the way I figured it out there are 3 ingredients of the art of beauty in different sizes;
1. Confident
I'm so blessed that I'm surrounding by a bunch of gay friends, that helps me practicing my level of confident and patienceness since most of them are professional firing squad that ready to shoot any given time, places and situation with their inner bitchyness and like professional squad they're HARDLY, never missed their target!!! I'm telling you if you can survived with their inner bitchyness, you can survive with almost anything eg: bad hairs do, make up, pimples, and wrong outfit etc
2. Recognized your finest asset -- work with that and try your best to flaunt it
That means you just have to know what is suitable for your body and personality; things that make you feel comfortable in the same time cute and sexy. Again if you don't have high level of confident, try to tone down the way your flaunted your finest asset because it just looks awkward and wrong in any possible way.
3. Smosing - smile and posing with your eyes (quote from Ms. J Alexander – The jury of the next America's top model)
The eyes are the window to your souls that shows your personality inside. By smosing, you're welcoming people to come, talk, connected with you and the rest is up to you... what you are going to do with these new people that comes into your life!!! They can be your friend,your network, lovers, affair etc
If you can mastering the art of beauty in different sizes, you will always feel beautiful without have to pay the price of beauty!!!!
Then again if Tyra Bank (The American top model, media personality, actress, businesswoman, the creator and host of the UPN/The CWreality television show America's Next Top Model) believes in short "petite" and plus size girls can be the next America's top model..... Why can we start believed that we could also be beautiful in our own size. The definition of beauty depends on the eyes of the beholder.
So plus size bitches out there,...Show me what you got....Work those bodiiiiii..... Flaunt it and keep "Smosing"(Smile and posing with your eyes)!!!!
I dedicated this article to all of bitches out there who don't feel beautiful because of their sizes!!!! Honey I love you, but you just have to stop obsessing with your sizes... either you want to work on it by hit the gym and straight diet or you just have to work with what you got and happy in the process... Cause .....
You are beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring you down, oh no
You are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring you down, oh no
So don't you bring me down today.... (Taken from Cristina Aguilera song lyric)
But do I like to pay the price of beauty; by starved myself to dead and be a gym rat? .... Wait a minutes darling,I didn't sign up for that!!!! So I guess I just have to work on with what I've been given, that means "My finest asset" and I try my best to flaunt it =)
Living in size 8-10, makes me realized and learn so much about myself; how my body works and my personalities -- "my strength and my weakness". Somehow along the way I figured it out there are 3 ingredients of the art of beauty in different sizes;
1. Confident
I'm so blessed that I'm surrounding by a bunch of gay friends, that helps me practicing my level of confident and patienceness since most of them are professional firing squad that ready to shoot any given time, places and situation with their inner bitchyness and like professional squad they're HARDLY, never missed their target!!! I'm telling you if you can survived with their inner bitchyness, you can survive with almost anything eg: bad hairs do, make up, pimples, and wrong outfit etc
2. Recognized your finest asset -- work with that and try your best to flaunt it
That means you just have to know what is suitable for your body and personality; things that make you feel comfortable in the same time cute and sexy. Again if you don't have high level of confident, try to tone down the way your flaunted your finest asset because it just looks awkward and wrong in any possible way.
3. Smosing - smile and posing with your eyes (quote from Ms. J Alexander – The jury of the next America's top model)
The eyes are the window to your souls that shows your personality inside. By smosing, you're welcoming people to come, talk, connected with you and the rest is up to you... what you are going to do with these new people that comes into your life!!! They can be your friend,your network, lovers, affair etc
If you can mastering the art of beauty in different sizes, you will always feel beautiful without have to pay the price of beauty!!!!
Then again if Tyra Bank (The American top model, media personality, actress, businesswoman, the creator and host of the UPN/The CWreality television show America's Next Top Model) believes in short "petite" and plus size girls can be the next America's top model..... Why can we start believed that we could also be beautiful in our own size. The definition of beauty depends on the eyes of the beholder.
So plus size bitches out there,...Show me what you got....Work those bodiiiiii..... Flaunt it and keep "Smosing"(Smile and posing with your eyes)!!!!
I dedicated this article to all of bitches out there who don't feel beautiful because of their sizes!!!! Honey I love you, but you just have to stop obsessing with your sizes... either you want to work on it by hit the gym and straight diet or you just have to work with what you got and happy in the process... Cause .....
You are beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring you down, oh no
You are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring you down, oh no
So don't you bring me down today.... (Taken from Cristina Aguilera song lyric)
BARRY OH BARRY
Paska pulang kampungnya Barry, nama panggilan kecil Barrak Husein Obama, Presiden USA ke Indonesia yang hanya berdurasi berdurasi 22 jam meninggalkan begitu banyak kesan – kesan dan cerita – cerita yang menarik untuk diberitakan.
Mulai dari kehebohan masyarakat Indonesia yang mengagumi kendaraan yang digunakan oleh rombongan Obama selama kunjungan; Air force One dan mobil anti peluru bermerk Cadilac yang diberi nama “the Beast”, hingga kehebohan para persatuan pedagang bakso, sate dan nasi goreng yang saling bersaing ketat untuk dapat menyajikan makanan kesukaan Barry di perjamuan makan malam Istana.
Belum lagi pembahasan mengenai busana yang dikenakan oleh Ibu Negara, Michelle Obama di beberapa acara infotaimen dan berita kontroversial Menkominfo, yang dikutip dalam jejaring sosialnya mengaku terpaksa menyalami Michelle Obama walaupun bukan muhrimnya.
Akan tetapi dari semua kisah yang telah diberitakan, ada beberapa kejadian yang luput dari pemberitaan. Salah satunya adalah nasip para pekerja malam yang biasa beroperasi di sebuah klab malam di hotel tempat rombongan Obama menginap yang terpaksa diliburkan selama 2 hari dengan alasan keamanan.
Penutup sementara selama ini bukan hanya mengakibatkan kerugian yang cukup signifikan atas penjualan minuman dan makanan kecil hotel akan tetapi juga berpengaruh pada ketidak nyamanan para pelanggan setia klab dan pendapatan para pekerja malam yang beroperasi diklab tersebut.
Untuk mengantisipasi hal tersebut pihak managemen hotel tempat Obama menginap mengadakan kerjasama dengan hotel berbintang dibilangan Senayan yang memiliki klab serupa, untuk memindah sementarakan daerah operasi para pekerja malam selama 2 hari.
Sebagai sosialisasi pihak managemen hotel tempat Obama menginap mengirimkan informasi melalui mailing list dan jejaring sosial lainnya sambil meletakan selebaran di car call, guess relation desk and lobby hotel.
Dari hasil wawancara dengan Tamara (bukan nama sesungguhnya) salah satu pekerja malam yang terpaksa hiijrah ke klab di hotel tetangga mengaku mengalami kerugian sekitar 1,5 juta akibat penutupan sementara ini.
“kebayang to mbak kita harus extra kerja keras secara numpang gitu loh, mana saingan jadi bertambah, belum lagi dipotong ama preman klab tetangga ... jadi kecil hasilnya” kata Tamara.
Kami juga berhasil mewawancarain salah satu pelanggan setia klab malam yang kebetulan terhalang oleh secret service di bagian lobby hotel tempat Obama menginap. Inilah hasil kutipan wawancara kami dengan Pierre yang berasal dari prancis dalam keadaan emosi: "this is really unbelievable ridicules!!! Where should I go now?...” Oh rupanya bapak Pierre belum mendapat selebaran informasi yang disediakan pihak managemen hotel.
Keluhan kesah para pekerja malam yang berjumlah sekitar 200 orang ini rupanya ditanggapi secara positif oleh pihak kedutaan USA, dimana Barry sangat mempercayain pentingnya pembangunan perekonomian kerakyatan.
Juru bicara kedutaan USA berjanji untuk mengadakan projek livelihood bagi para pekerja malam dan membayar ganti rugi 2 hari penutupan klab malam dengan memberikan perdiem kepada para pekerja malam tersebut.
Ternyata pulang kampungnya Barry bukan hanya membawa kesan tapi juga membawa berkah bagi para pekerja kerja malam yang bukan hanya mendapat liburan gratis yang dibayarkan tetapi juga kemungkinan alih profesi dengan program livelihood yang dijanjikan oleh kedutaan USA.
Narasumber adalah seorang pengamat sosial yang ke AURAT annya sudah dapat dibuktikan =)
Mulai dari kehebohan masyarakat Indonesia yang mengagumi kendaraan yang digunakan oleh rombongan Obama selama kunjungan; Air force One dan mobil anti peluru bermerk Cadilac yang diberi nama “the Beast”, hingga kehebohan para persatuan pedagang bakso, sate dan nasi goreng yang saling bersaing ketat untuk dapat menyajikan makanan kesukaan Barry di perjamuan makan malam Istana.
Belum lagi pembahasan mengenai busana yang dikenakan oleh Ibu Negara, Michelle Obama di beberapa acara infotaimen dan berita kontroversial Menkominfo, yang dikutip dalam jejaring sosialnya mengaku terpaksa menyalami Michelle Obama walaupun bukan muhrimnya.
Akan tetapi dari semua kisah yang telah diberitakan, ada beberapa kejadian yang luput dari pemberitaan. Salah satunya adalah nasip para pekerja malam yang biasa beroperasi di sebuah klab malam di hotel tempat rombongan Obama menginap yang terpaksa diliburkan selama 2 hari dengan alasan keamanan.
Penutup sementara selama ini bukan hanya mengakibatkan kerugian yang cukup signifikan atas penjualan minuman dan makanan kecil hotel akan tetapi juga berpengaruh pada ketidak nyamanan para pelanggan setia klab dan pendapatan para pekerja malam yang beroperasi diklab tersebut.
Untuk mengantisipasi hal tersebut pihak managemen hotel tempat Obama menginap mengadakan kerjasama dengan hotel berbintang dibilangan Senayan yang memiliki klab serupa, untuk memindah sementarakan daerah operasi para pekerja malam selama 2 hari.
Sebagai sosialisasi pihak managemen hotel tempat Obama menginap mengirimkan informasi melalui mailing list dan jejaring sosial lainnya sambil meletakan selebaran di car call, guess relation desk and lobby hotel.
Dari hasil wawancara dengan Tamara (bukan nama sesungguhnya) salah satu pekerja malam yang terpaksa hiijrah ke klab di hotel tetangga mengaku mengalami kerugian sekitar 1,5 juta akibat penutupan sementara ini.
“kebayang to mbak kita harus extra kerja keras secara numpang gitu loh, mana saingan jadi bertambah, belum lagi dipotong ama preman klab tetangga ... jadi kecil hasilnya” kata Tamara.
Kami juga berhasil mewawancarain salah satu pelanggan setia klab malam yang kebetulan terhalang oleh secret service di bagian lobby hotel tempat Obama menginap. Inilah hasil kutipan wawancara kami dengan Pierre yang berasal dari prancis dalam keadaan emosi: "this is really unbelievable ridicules!!! Where should I go now?...” Oh rupanya bapak Pierre belum mendapat selebaran informasi yang disediakan pihak managemen hotel.
Keluhan kesah para pekerja malam yang berjumlah sekitar 200 orang ini rupanya ditanggapi secara positif oleh pihak kedutaan USA, dimana Barry sangat mempercayain pentingnya pembangunan perekonomian kerakyatan.
Juru bicara kedutaan USA berjanji untuk mengadakan projek livelihood bagi para pekerja malam dan membayar ganti rugi 2 hari penutupan klab malam dengan memberikan perdiem kepada para pekerja malam tersebut.
Ternyata pulang kampungnya Barry bukan hanya membawa kesan tapi juga membawa berkah bagi para pekerja kerja malam yang bukan hanya mendapat liburan gratis yang dibayarkan tetapi juga kemungkinan alih profesi dengan program livelihood yang dijanjikan oleh kedutaan USA.
Narasumber adalah seorang pengamat sosial yang ke AURAT annya sudah dapat dibuktikan =)
MIYABI - SAMA VITALNYA BEDA PENYAJIANNYA
Berawal dari pembicaraan ringan disela-sela waktu kerja dengan beberapa rekan sejawat dikantor yang sedang demam tokoh Miyabi, gadis berdarah belasteran Jepang, Canada, dan Prancis yang sukses digandrungi para lelaki di Jepang dan di beberapa Negara ASIA lainnya, dikarenakan kecantikan dan originalitasnya.
Selama pembicaraan berlangsung saya sempat berpikir bahwa Miyabi itu produk makanan ringan Jepang seperti kacang garuda versi Jepang atau tokoh kartun Jepang, akan tetapi ternyata dugaan saya itu salah kaprah dan benar2x jauh menyimpang ketika saya mencoba mengkonfirmasikan dengan rekan sejawat saya. Mereka tertawa geli dengan keluguan (terjemahan Naif) saya ini dan mencoba menjelaskan siapakan sebenarnya sosok Miyabi lengkap dengan situs2x yang bisa menerangkan.
Maria Ozawa aka Miyabi adalah artis film porno asal Jepang yang sukses mengikuti jejak seniornya (Asia Carera) yang telah pensiun dari dunia film porno. Maria Ozawa kini menjadi artis paling dicari dan terpopuler diantara artis – artis porno lainnya di Asia.
Miyabi di lahirkan di Hokkaido, Jepang pada 8 Januari 1986, tinggi badan 1.62 meter dan berat 48 kg. Dengan sosok wajah yang terlihat ayu, polos dan lugu kekanak-kanakan. Beda dengan wajah artis bintang – bintang porno dari belahan benua Eropa atau Amerika
Di usia 13 tahun, wanita pencinta warna Pink ini telah mendapatkan pengalaman seks pertamanya. Saat itu dia melakukan hubungan seks dengan sang pacar pertama yang 4 tahun lebih tua darinya. Dari blog pribadinya diketahui di usia 19 tahun, Maria Ozawa telah melakukan dengan 6 pria, empat diantaranya adalah sang pacar. Di usia itu, Maria Ozawa telah menguasai 48 posisi sex yang dia pelajari dari majalah porno yang dibelinya sendiri. (dikutip dari situs Wikipedia)
Seiring dengan bertambahnya pengetahuan saya tentang sosok Miyabi, bertambah pula rasa keinginan tahu saya untuk tahu lebih dalam, faktor apa yang menyebabkan sosok Miyabi yang jauh sekali dari kesan artis bintang porno menjadi begitu terkenal dikalangan lelaki? Kemudian saya mencoba menelusuri dan mengamati situs2x milik Miyabi yang secara tidak langsung berkaitan erat dengan situs porno Jepang lainnya termasuk didalamnya situs porno Eropa dan Amerika.
Bermodalkan kekuatan mental, iman (membaca bismilah 3x), rasa ingin tahu saya yang tinggi, earphone (malu kalau kedengaran suara backsound filmnya) dan waktu luang di jumat malam, saya memberanikan diri untuk mengadakan penelitian ringan selama 2 jam dengan 10 sampling film durasi 2-4 menit dari berbagai produksi diinternet (3 film Amerika, 3 film Eropa, 2 film Jepang dan 2 film China). Dari 10 Sampling film saya membagi menjadi 2 katagori (karena kemiripan karakteristik fisik dan budaya) AMERIKA (mewakili Eropa) VS JEPANG (mewakili Asia), saya berkesimpulan:
• Untuk publik Amerika (Eropa), motto; “size does matter” berlaku mutlak atau berbanding lurus bagi wanita maupun laki-lakinya, oleh karena itu para wanita/ laki-laki atau artis/aktor bintang porno Amerika (Eropa) berlomba-lomba untuk membesarkan “ukuran vitalnya” menjadi sesuatu yang fenomenal. Sedang beda penerapanya bagi kebutuhan wanita/laki-laki atau artis/aktor Asia yang menyatakan”small is beautiful” semakin terlihat natural, semakin indah, mungkin ini ada hubunganya dengan karakteristik fisik orang Asia yang petite.
• Dalam masalah tehnik penyuguhan film, publik Amerika (Eropa) menikmati “bare it all” sedangkan publik Asia lebih memilih “hidden treasure or hide and seek”(artinya si aktor dan artis masih mengunakan sehelai kain) ini mungkin ada hubungannya dengan fantasi laki – laki Asia yang ingin penjadi explorer atau seorang petualang, sementara untuk laki – laki Amerika (Eropa) kegiatan atau menjadi explorer sudah mereka lakukan secara nyata, dengan ber-travelling keliling dunia.
• Pada produksi film-film porno Amerika dan Eropa, saya mengamati mereka menerapkan azas kesetaraan gender, kedua belah pihak (aktor dan artis) berperan aktif dalam kegiatan tersebut. Sementara di film – film porno Asia, laki-laki memegang peranan yang dominan atau lebih aktif, sedangkan wanita hanya sebagai objek penerima/penderita. Ini dikarenakan erat kaitanya dengan masih kuatnya tradisi patriarki di Asia.
Dari sisi ini mungkin bisa dijadikan masukan untuk produksi terbaru film-film porno Asia dimasa yang akan datang untuk dapat dimunculkan azas kesetaraan gender, yang mungkin dapat menciptakan pangsa pasar baru di Asia.
• Poin diatas juga berhubungan dengan penilaian akting/mimik atau ekspresi wajah dan suara (sounds) aktor dan artisnya, dimana film porno Amerika (Eropa) terlihat artis dan aktor lebih bisa berekspresi bebas dan liar dengan bantuan dialog atau suara2x yang inovatif yang mendukung keberadaan film, seperti; oh yes, oh no, go fast dll. Untuk produksi film porno Asia terlihat lebih sunyi layaknya film bisu tahun 20-an milik Charlie Chaplin, dan kalaupun adanya mimik/suara terlihat sangat kontradiksi dengan dengan kegiatan yang sedang berlangsung, terutama bagi artisnya seperti mimik ketakutan, rintihan kesakitan, atau suara tawa ringan layaknya anak – anak.
• Hal lain, produksi film porno Asia lebih menyukai adanya alur cerita atau “prolog or go around the bushes before making point” sementara produksi Amerika (Eropa) seperti kelayaknya tradisi / budaya Amerika (Eropa) mereka langsung,”straight to the point and get down to the business!!!!”
• Untuk tampilan karakteristik wajah pemain artis/aktor, film-film porno Amerika (Eropa) lebih memilih wajah-wajah dewasa yang sudah terlihat matang, gahar dan sudah siap, karena di anggap lebih berpengalaman dalam teknik dan konfigurasi posisi. Ini kebalikan dengan film porno Asia yang memilih wajah2x adolescent - innocent terlihat masih sangat muda belia terkadang seperti baru akil balik dan secara teknik masih hijau. Ini ada hubungannya dengan mitos kesucian yang dapat meningkatkan keperkasaan laki-laki dan hal ini pulalah yang menyebabkan Miyabi sukses memenuhi fantasi para lelaki Asia dan sekitarnya.
Sebagai seorang pengamat, saya tidak dapat memutuskan mana yang lebih bagus atau baik, film porno produksi Asia atau Amerika (Eropa), ini kembali lagi dengan kebutuhan dan selera penikmat film-film porno masing - masing - you know what turns you on, don’t you guys? ... Seperti instruksi bapak presiden!!! apapun pilihannya ... Lanjutkan!!!
Sebagai catatan: Kesimpulan diatas masih merupakan wacana dan belum dapat dijadikan suatu acuan data yang akurat, mengutip ucapan rekan sejawat saya, “harus dibuat jurnal akademik terlebih dahulu, supaya dapat dipertanggungjawabkan“.
Saya berharap Durex tertarik untuk mengadakan survey lebih mendalam dan mungkin menggunakan jasa bantuan saya untuk menulis.
Tentang penulis:
Seorang awam yang mencoba untuk alih profesi menjadi kritikus bintang/film porno, atau jadi bintangnya! HUAHUHAHUAHUAKKKK.....
Selama pembicaraan berlangsung saya sempat berpikir bahwa Miyabi itu produk makanan ringan Jepang seperti kacang garuda versi Jepang atau tokoh kartun Jepang, akan tetapi ternyata dugaan saya itu salah kaprah dan benar2x jauh menyimpang ketika saya mencoba mengkonfirmasikan dengan rekan sejawat saya. Mereka tertawa geli dengan keluguan (terjemahan Naif) saya ini dan mencoba menjelaskan siapakan sebenarnya sosok Miyabi lengkap dengan situs2x yang bisa menerangkan.
Maria Ozawa aka Miyabi adalah artis film porno asal Jepang yang sukses mengikuti jejak seniornya (Asia Carera) yang telah pensiun dari dunia film porno. Maria Ozawa kini menjadi artis paling dicari dan terpopuler diantara artis – artis porno lainnya di Asia.
Miyabi di lahirkan di Hokkaido, Jepang pada 8 Januari 1986, tinggi badan 1.62 meter dan berat 48 kg. Dengan sosok wajah yang terlihat ayu, polos dan lugu kekanak-kanakan. Beda dengan wajah artis bintang – bintang porno dari belahan benua Eropa atau Amerika
Di usia 13 tahun, wanita pencinta warna Pink ini telah mendapatkan pengalaman seks pertamanya. Saat itu dia melakukan hubungan seks dengan sang pacar pertama yang 4 tahun lebih tua darinya. Dari blog pribadinya diketahui di usia 19 tahun, Maria Ozawa telah melakukan dengan 6 pria, empat diantaranya adalah sang pacar. Di usia itu, Maria Ozawa telah menguasai 48 posisi sex yang dia pelajari dari majalah porno yang dibelinya sendiri. (dikutip dari situs Wikipedia)
Seiring dengan bertambahnya pengetahuan saya tentang sosok Miyabi, bertambah pula rasa keinginan tahu saya untuk tahu lebih dalam, faktor apa yang menyebabkan sosok Miyabi yang jauh sekali dari kesan artis bintang porno menjadi begitu terkenal dikalangan lelaki? Kemudian saya mencoba menelusuri dan mengamati situs2x milik Miyabi yang secara tidak langsung berkaitan erat dengan situs porno Jepang lainnya termasuk didalamnya situs porno Eropa dan Amerika.
Bermodalkan kekuatan mental, iman (membaca bismilah 3x), rasa ingin tahu saya yang tinggi, earphone (malu kalau kedengaran suara backsound filmnya) dan waktu luang di jumat malam, saya memberanikan diri untuk mengadakan penelitian ringan selama 2 jam dengan 10 sampling film durasi 2-4 menit dari berbagai produksi diinternet (3 film Amerika, 3 film Eropa, 2 film Jepang dan 2 film China). Dari 10 Sampling film saya membagi menjadi 2 katagori (karena kemiripan karakteristik fisik dan budaya) AMERIKA (mewakili Eropa) VS JEPANG (mewakili Asia), saya berkesimpulan:
• Untuk publik Amerika (Eropa), motto; “size does matter” berlaku mutlak atau berbanding lurus bagi wanita maupun laki-lakinya, oleh karena itu para wanita/ laki-laki atau artis/aktor bintang porno Amerika (Eropa) berlomba-lomba untuk membesarkan “ukuran vitalnya” menjadi sesuatu yang fenomenal. Sedang beda penerapanya bagi kebutuhan wanita/laki-laki atau artis/aktor Asia yang menyatakan”small is beautiful” semakin terlihat natural, semakin indah, mungkin ini ada hubunganya dengan karakteristik fisik orang Asia yang petite.
• Dalam masalah tehnik penyuguhan film, publik Amerika (Eropa) menikmati “bare it all” sedangkan publik Asia lebih memilih “hidden treasure or hide and seek”(artinya si aktor dan artis masih mengunakan sehelai kain) ini mungkin ada hubungannya dengan fantasi laki – laki Asia yang ingin penjadi explorer atau seorang petualang, sementara untuk laki – laki Amerika (Eropa) kegiatan atau menjadi explorer sudah mereka lakukan secara nyata, dengan ber-travelling keliling dunia.
• Pada produksi film-film porno Amerika dan Eropa, saya mengamati mereka menerapkan azas kesetaraan gender, kedua belah pihak (aktor dan artis) berperan aktif dalam kegiatan tersebut. Sementara di film – film porno Asia, laki-laki memegang peranan yang dominan atau lebih aktif, sedangkan wanita hanya sebagai objek penerima/penderita. Ini dikarenakan erat kaitanya dengan masih kuatnya tradisi patriarki di Asia.
Dari sisi ini mungkin bisa dijadikan masukan untuk produksi terbaru film-film porno Asia dimasa yang akan datang untuk dapat dimunculkan azas kesetaraan gender, yang mungkin dapat menciptakan pangsa pasar baru di Asia.
• Poin diatas juga berhubungan dengan penilaian akting/mimik atau ekspresi wajah dan suara (sounds) aktor dan artisnya, dimana film porno Amerika (Eropa) terlihat artis dan aktor lebih bisa berekspresi bebas dan liar dengan bantuan dialog atau suara2x yang inovatif yang mendukung keberadaan film, seperti; oh yes, oh no, go fast dll. Untuk produksi film porno Asia terlihat lebih sunyi layaknya film bisu tahun 20-an milik Charlie Chaplin, dan kalaupun adanya mimik/suara terlihat sangat kontradiksi dengan dengan kegiatan yang sedang berlangsung, terutama bagi artisnya seperti mimik ketakutan, rintihan kesakitan, atau suara tawa ringan layaknya anak – anak.
• Hal lain, produksi film porno Asia lebih menyukai adanya alur cerita atau “prolog or go around the bushes before making point” sementara produksi Amerika (Eropa) seperti kelayaknya tradisi / budaya Amerika (Eropa) mereka langsung,”straight to the point and get down to the business!!!!”
• Untuk tampilan karakteristik wajah pemain artis/aktor, film-film porno Amerika (Eropa) lebih memilih wajah-wajah dewasa yang sudah terlihat matang, gahar dan sudah siap, karena di anggap lebih berpengalaman dalam teknik dan konfigurasi posisi. Ini kebalikan dengan film porno Asia yang memilih wajah2x adolescent - innocent terlihat masih sangat muda belia terkadang seperti baru akil balik dan secara teknik masih hijau. Ini ada hubungannya dengan mitos kesucian yang dapat meningkatkan keperkasaan laki-laki dan hal ini pulalah yang menyebabkan Miyabi sukses memenuhi fantasi para lelaki Asia dan sekitarnya.
Sebagai seorang pengamat, saya tidak dapat memutuskan mana yang lebih bagus atau baik, film porno produksi Asia atau Amerika (Eropa), ini kembali lagi dengan kebutuhan dan selera penikmat film-film porno masing - masing - you know what turns you on, don’t you guys? ... Seperti instruksi bapak presiden!!! apapun pilihannya ... Lanjutkan!!!
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MY EMOTIONAL STATE OF MINDS
When I was in my second grade in the elementary school, I had an IQ test. Based on the result I got high point on critical analytical thinking and creativity, however a low point on emotional attachment that means I don’t get easily emotionally attached on something or someone like most normal people did.
Well, it doesn’t mean, I can’t be happy or sad or angry over something, of course I could!!! However most of the time I managed to keep it level headed.
First I was thinking that I might have emotional apathy. Emotional apathy is an absence of emotion or suppresses your feeling on something to avoid you from being hurt or getting hurt. It likes defense mechanism used to escape from pain or hurt. Of course it can help you to diminish the pain and negative experiences then continues living as usual; however it also makes you become inanimate and bitter toward life.
After I learned more about the definition of emotional apathy, I realized that it’s definitely not justified my emotional state of minds. First of all, I’m not bitter person toward life even though in the process of life I might get stumble, pain or getting hurt but honestly it’s worth all the pain when I reached my goal!!!... Secondly I love life and being a live because I had so many plans that I like to do with my life.
Then I come to my last conclusion that my lack of emotional attachment it must be got to do with my critical analytical thinking or the voice of reason, “thing happens for a reason -- I just have to find the reason why? And if I couldn’t find the reason, then I accepted that is part of human character which it’s nothing got to do with me! So every times I have difficulty dealing with peoples, I always ask myself over and over again;
“Is it worthwhile for me to accept this?” If it is, I will spend my time and energy to cope with it and if it’s not, I don’t bother to do anything then I just walk away and move on without hatred.
For me hate or hatred is a strong word which consumes a lot of energy; mentally and also time moreover it avoids me to move on. So my definition of hate is dislike because there’s an explanation or logical thinking behind it – the reason why I don’t like it and detached me from being too emotional or too angry.
My definition of sadness is disappointing of disagreement that means the person is failing to meet my expectations, hopes, desires, or standards because of disagreement. Then it comes to my next question: “Is it worthwhile for me to low my expectation, hopes, desires or standards for it?”… If it is, I’ll accept the agreement with all of the consequences or we could discussed the new term of agreement that meets both party’s requirements and if it’s not, I will accept that we have disagreement because of both party’s didn’t meet each others requirements and I just move on without hatred to find a better deal. Again it detached me from being sadness.
Then my definition of happiness is imperfection of life that fulfilled with ups and downs with a deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection, solicitude and gratitude. So when I'm in my happy state of minds, i did not become "euphoria".
I guess by trying to define my emotional state of minds somehow it helps me a lot to balance my emotional and keep it level headed.
When people think either I’m being too soft, too positive, too patience nor emotionless that’s simply untrue!!! I just try to put things in logical perspective, because sometimes our emotions can cloud our judgment and makes us being too attached or too emotional over something that might not necessary after all.
In the end of the day I just don’t want to waste my energy and time over something that I know exactly it's useless and unproductive.
“Life is already complicated enough and I did not want to add another complication in life"
Well, it doesn’t mean, I can’t be happy or sad or angry over something, of course I could!!! However most of the time I managed to keep it level headed.
First I was thinking that I might have emotional apathy. Emotional apathy is an absence of emotion or suppresses your feeling on something to avoid you from being hurt or getting hurt. It likes defense mechanism used to escape from pain or hurt. Of course it can help you to diminish the pain and negative experiences then continues living as usual; however it also makes you become inanimate and bitter toward life.
After I learned more about the definition of emotional apathy, I realized that it’s definitely not justified my emotional state of minds. First of all, I’m not bitter person toward life even though in the process of life I might get stumble, pain or getting hurt but honestly it’s worth all the pain when I reached my goal!!!... Secondly I love life and being a live because I had so many plans that I like to do with my life.
Then I come to my last conclusion that my lack of emotional attachment it must be got to do with my critical analytical thinking or the voice of reason, “thing happens for a reason -- I just have to find the reason why? And if I couldn’t find the reason, then I accepted that is part of human character which it’s nothing got to do with me! So every times I have difficulty dealing with peoples, I always ask myself over and over again;
“Is it worthwhile for me to accept this?” If it is, I will spend my time and energy to cope with it and if it’s not, I don’t bother to do anything then I just walk away and move on without hatred.
For me hate or hatred is a strong word which consumes a lot of energy; mentally and also time moreover it avoids me to move on. So my definition of hate is dislike because there’s an explanation or logical thinking behind it – the reason why I don’t like it and detached me from being too emotional or too angry.
My definition of sadness is disappointing of disagreement that means the person is failing to meet my expectations, hopes, desires, or standards because of disagreement. Then it comes to my next question: “Is it worthwhile for me to low my expectation, hopes, desires or standards for it?”… If it is, I’ll accept the agreement with all of the consequences or we could discussed the new term of agreement that meets both party’s requirements and if it’s not, I will accept that we have disagreement because of both party’s didn’t meet each others requirements and I just move on without hatred to find a better deal. Again it detached me from being sadness.
Then my definition of happiness is imperfection of life that fulfilled with ups and downs with a deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection, solicitude and gratitude. So when I'm in my happy state of minds, i did not become "euphoria".
I guess by trying to define my emotional state of minds somehow it helps me a lot to balance my emotional and keep it level headed.
When people think either I’m being too soft, too positive, too patience nor emotionless that’s simply untrue!!! I just try to put things in logical perspective, because sometimes our emotions can cloud our judgment and makes us being too attached or too emotional over something that might not necessary after all.
In the end of the day I just don’t want to waste my energy and time over something that I know exactly it's useless and unproductive.
“Life is already complicated enough and I did not want to add another complication in life"
"G" MAGNET
I always believed that people is like a magnet. They pull certain type of people into their life and usually because of these people have the similar personalities, attitude, the way of living or just completely opposite attraction. Basically if you’re a strong and confident person – you will attract a group of other strong and confident person and if you’re too dominant -- you will attract the opposite personality, subsequently you will be their "queen bee" =)
And unlike others ... mine has a name and it’s called “G” Magnet which means Gay Magnet.
Seriously almost everywhere I go e.g.; malls, cinemas, café’s, clubs, pubs, discos or even when I was traveling. Somehow I always ended up collided with “G” Man and other fun facts; from 8 out of 10 men who dare to talk and approach me are “G” Man and only (2) are straight man … Well, who knows they can be bisexual too =)
Apparently without I realized I have ”G Friendly Vibe” that is screamed out loud all over my body!!! And the “G” man sees me as a raw diamond where real diamond has 4C qualities (Carat, Cut, Clarity, and Color) meanwhile I’m inherited 3C and 1B qualities (Convenient Companionship that can be used as Cover up – if they are not yet coming out or as a Bait – to attract another “G” Man since I have the “G friendly vibe”)... Well, likes Batman has Robin as his side kick; “G” man has me as their side kick =)
I also assumed that I must be a damn-kick-ass-side-kick since I got stability, independency and less emotional baggage that gives added value to their life without threatening their existence ... Moreover I don’t mind to let them shine over me!!! GEE, no wonder “G” men are all over me!! What can’t I say, I’m so precious for them =)
Again likes Batman has so many devices to facilitate his job such as Bat-mobile, Bat-arangs, Bat-lasso etc. As “G” Man side kick, I’m also well equipped with one device that called “G”Dar (Gay Radar) where I could just spotted “G” Man from the distant.
This “G” Dar is well customized and attached to my body and matter affect it's one of my finest asset=) … Here's how the "G"Dar device works usually if a man scrutinized me around H & T Zone (Head to Toe) more than 10 sec, the light will turn green – means he’s absolutely “G” Man, however if he’s staring around T & H Zone (Tits and Hips), the light will turn red, means he’s definitely straight !! The longer he’s staring at those areas – means the level of their “G” ness or straightness. Even though sometimes I have false alarm, since “Bi” is hard to detect!!!!....
To be frankly, I felt gifted with my “G” Magnet ability since it’s not like everybody have it or born with it =) And somehow along the way between “G” Man and me, we developed finest mutualism relationship.
The “G” man keeps me amused with their dark and bitchy sense of humor since they don't hesitate scrutinize and criticize me with their inner bitchiness if I did the unthinkable mistake in the same time they’re inspiring me to write or develop extraordinary ideas.
So for all “G” man out there, thanks for your existences and chooses me as your side kick!! Even though the side kick sometimes needs a break too!!!! Hehehehe ....
And unlike others ... mine has a name and it’s called “G” Magnet which means Gay Magnet.
Seriously almost everywhere I go e.g.; malls, cinemas, café’s, clubs, pubs, discos or even when I was traveling. Somehow I always ended up collided with “G” Man and other fun facts; from 8 out of 10 men who dare to talk and approach me are “G” Man and only (2) are straight man … Well, who knows they can be bisexual too =)
Apparently without I realized I have ”G Friendly Vibe” that is screamed out loud all over my body!!! And the “G” man sees me as a raw diamond where real diamond has 4C qualities (Carat, Cut, Clarity, and Color) meanwhile I’m inherited 3C and 1B qualities (Convenient Companionship that can be used as Cover up – if they are not yet coming out or as a Bait – to attract another “G” Man since I have the “G friendly vibe”)... Well, likes Batman has Robin as his side kick; “G” man has me as their side kick =)
I also assumed that I must be a damn-kick-ass-side-kick since I got stability, independency and less emotional baggage that gives added value to their life without threatening their existence ... Moreover I don’t mind to let them shine over me!!! GEE, no wonder “G” men are all over me!! What can’t I say, I’m so precious for them =)
Again likes Batman has so many devices to facilitate his job such as Bat-mobile, Bat-arangs, Bat-lasso etc. As “G” Man side kick, I’m also well equipped with one device that called “G”Dar (Gay Radar) where I could just spotted “G” Man from the distant.
This “G” Dar is well customized and attached to my body and matter affect it's one of my finest asset=) … Here's how the "G"Dar device works usually if a man scrutinized me around H & T Zone (Head to Toe) more than 10 sec, the light will turn green – means he’s absolutely “G” Man, however if he’s staring around T & H Zone (Tits and Hips), the light will turn red, means he’s definitely straight !! The longer he’s staring at those areas – means the level of their “G” ness or straightness. Even though sometimes I have false alarm, since “Bi” is hard to detect!!!!....
To be frankly, I felt gifted with my “G” Magnet ability since it’s not like everybody have it or born with it =) And somehow along the way between “G” Man and me, we developed finest mutualism relationship.
The “G” man keeps me amused with their dark and bitchy sense of humor since they don't hesitate scrutinize and criticize me with their inner bitchiness if I did the unthinkable mistake in the same time they’re inspiring me to write or develop extraordinary ideas.
So for all “G” man out there, thanks for your existences and chooses me as your side kick!! Even though the side kick sometimes needs a break too!!!! Hehehehe ....
INTELLECTUAL INTERCOURSE
It all begins with a small conversation while we were waiting for the opening of the 2010 FIFA World Cup soccer matches, Mexico VS South African on a big screen of Merdeka Walk, Medan back in July. Out of the blue a friend of mine was complaining: “How it is difficult to find a date with combination of great physical appeals and intellectual quality”.
After several argumentation back and forth between me and the other three friends of mine somehow we came to the conclusions that most of the time we ended up dating with only one of the quality which mostly physical appeals since it’s more visual and easy to recognized than intellectual quality.
Then the other friend of mine who claimed himself as “twit-whore” – He is addicted to twitter and abuses other people twitters with his famous words, “numpang kayang” is raised an interesting term that got me thinking the whole night.
He said that the older he gets the more he needs the intellectual intercourse where his date does not only blow his “you know what” but also blow his minds, so he can experiences “the physical and intellectual Big Bang”. Wow that sounds too good to be true, huh?....
Later that night, alone in my room, after finished making my field trip report, it got me thinking about the word of “the intellectual intercourse” and just to satisfied my curiosity, I tried to look up that words in the dictionary to figure out the meaning of it.
The Intellectual intercourse is when two people engage in conversation, the flow of words between them closely resembles the series of actions one goes through during the act of sex.
The other interesting part was according to this dictionary, the discussion itself is the act of intercourse: stroking the partner's ego, taking enjoyment in the topic as it is discussed, or simply enjoying the company of the other and listening to them speak.
"Gee, I don't know that the discussion could be part of the act of intercourse, do you?".....
To rest my minds of this subject, somehow I come to my own conclusion …. Maybe the key to discover and experience the intellectual intercourse are not difficult after all, we just have to perform several the act of intercourse (“discussion”) with several people, because when we do the act of intercourse (“discussion”) we give ourselves an effort to get to know the person better and maybe one of those person are the right person for you to experience the intellectual intercourse.
Well, I haven’t try out this theory yet!!! So please do not try intellectual intercourse at home without parental guidance, I guess =)
After several argumentation back and forth between me and the other three friends of mine somehow we came to the conclusions that most of the time we ended up dating with only one of the quality which mostly physical appeals since it’s more visual and easy to recognized than intellectual quality.
Then the other friend of mine who claimed himself as “twit-whore” – He is addicted to twitter and abuses other people twitters with his famous words, “numpang kayang” is raised an interesting term that got me thinking the whole night.
He said that the older he gets the more he needs the intellectual intercourse where his date does not only blow his “you know what” but also blow his minds, so he can experiences “the physical and intellectual Big Bang”. Wow that sounds too good to be true, huh?....
Later that night, alone in my room, after finished making my field trip report, it got me thinking about the word of “the intellectual intercourse” and just to satisfied my curiosity, I tried to look up that words in the dictionary to figure out the meaning of it.
The Intellectual intercourse is when two people engage in conversation, the flow of words between them closely resembles the series of actions one goes through during the act of sex.
The other interesting part was according to this dictionary, the discussion itself is the act of intercourse: stroking the partner's ego, taking enjoyment in the topic as it is discussed, or simply enjoying the company of the other and listening to them speak.
"Gee, I don't know that the discussion could be part of the act of intercourse, do you?".....
To rest my minds of this subject, somehow I come to my own conclusion …. Maybe the key to discover and experience the intellectual intercourse are not difficult after all, we just have to perform several the act of intercourse (“discussion”) with several people, because when we do the act of intercourse (“discussion”) we give ourselves an effort to get to know the person better and maybe one of those person are the right person for you to experience the intellectual intercourse.
Well, I haven’t try out this theory yet!!! So please do not try intellectual intercourse at home without parental guidance, I guess =)
10 THINGS ABOUT ME
To whom that reads this article, kindly reminded me another 10 years from now!!!
Wise man once said to me that when you come to the certain age; you become less and less tolerance of certain things and somehow I reached those phases. Here are the (10) things about me that people should know:
1. I REALLY hate needles, going under the knife and medicine!!!! Honestly, I will do anything in my power to avoid that …. So for my future beauty plan – I guess I just have to put a lot of cream, hit the gym more often and eat “healthy” since there will be no Botox, Liposuction, and Tummy tuck, unless they found a new technology that prevents me from getting pain!!!!
2. I couldn’t function in well-organize, sterile, predictable environment or the areas that is full of traffic, bad pollution and no access to nature – that just makes me suffocated!!! I REALLY need a bit chaotic, unpredictable areas to live in that have a lot of open space, less pollution, no bad traffic and easy access to nature…. WOW where could that be? Any ideas?!
3. My dream job will be FIELD JOB; where I could interact more with “real peoples” and nature plus it’s required me to travel more.
4. I couldn’t stand dealing with “bullshit peoples”! Well, I used to be really good dealing with them by pretending and helping them get orgasm with their bullshit however now -- somehow I don’t have the time and energy for doing that, C’mon just get real, just put that mask down, so I could see your true color!.... “If Tante syuka, Tante bayarin!“
5. I couldn’t stand dealing with “mellow dramatic peoples”! I could just shoot my head directly with the big gun, because these people just annoyed me inside out. News flash: “Life is hard and you died! Get over it….”
6. I was thinking more and more to adopt a puppy or a baby (a bit undecided though)…. Well, both are cute, need a lot of attention, time and energy … Well, maybe dog!
7. I’m eager to see the world out there, started with finished travel around Indonesia, ASEAN countries then Asia in general, Africa, Europe, and South America… Gee, I still have 170 countries more to go!!!......
8. I love vintage stuffs either it’s art, clothes, music, film, wine or vintage man!!! Hehehhehe…
9. If one day I’m bored, sick and tired with aid agencies… I probably back to my real passion, which is ART and CULTURE!!!
10. I had an alter ego named Tante and it has been stick with me for more than 7 years now.
Well who knows, I might ended up living in the big city with no open space, bad air and traffic, work in a huge corporate company that required me to less contact with “real peoples” because for them, real peoples are just another profitable numbers!!! Then hang out with bull-shitters and mellow dramatic peoples since I don’t have any facial expressions and ability to feel emotions anyway because of the effect of dozens of Botox injected to my face.
I’ll be a super skinny bitch that only travels to the famous shopping spree destinations, purchase art in the name of prestigious and have a lot boy toy on a side, just to feel hips and young. Followed by big sex tape scandals!!!....
Wise man once said to me that when you come to the certain age; you become less and less tolerance of certain things and somehow I reached those phases. Here are the (10) things about me that people should know:
1. I REALLY hate needles, going under the knife and medicine!!!! Honestly, I will do anything in my power to avoid that …. So for my future beauty plan – I guess I just have to put a lot of cream, hit the gym more often and eat “healthy” since there will be no Botox, Liposuction, and Tummy tuck, unless they found a new technology that prevents me from getting pain!!!!
2. I couldn’t function in well-organize, sterile, predictable environment or the areas that is full of traffic, bad pollution and no access to nature – that just makes me suffocated!!! I REALLY need a bit chaotic, unpredictable areas to live in that have a lot of open space, less pollution, no bad traffic and easy access to nature…. WOW where could that be? Any ideas?!
3. My dream job will be FIELD JOB; where I could interact more with “real peoples” and nature plus it’s required me to travel more.
4. I couldn’t stand dealing with “bullshit peoples”! Well, I used to be really good dealing with them by pretending and helping them get orgasm with their bullshit however now -- somehow I don’t have the time and energy for doing that, C’mon just get real, just put that mask down, so I could see your true color!.... “If Tante syuka, Tante bayarin!“
5. I couldn’t stand dealing with “mellow dramatic peoples”! I could just shoot my head directly with the big gun, because these people just annoyed me inside out. News flash: “Life is hard and you died! Get over it….”
6. I was thinking more and more to adopt a puppy or a baby (a bit undecided though)…. Well, both are cute, need a lot of attention, time and energy … Well, maybe dog!
7. I’m eager to see the world out there, started with finished travel around Indonesia, ASEAN countries then Asia in general, Africa, Europe, and South America… Gee, I still have 170 countries more to go!!!......
8. I love vintage stuffs either it’s art, clothes, music, film, wine or vintage man!!! Hehehhehe…
9. If one day I’m bored, sick and tired with aid agencies… I probably back to my real passion, which is ART and CULTURE!!!
10. I had an alter ego named Tante and it has been stick with me for more than 7 years now.
Well who knows, I might ended up living in the big city with no open space, bad air and traffic, work in a huge corporate company that required me to less contact with “real peoples” because for them, real peoples are just another profitable numbers!!! Then hang out with bull-shitters and mellow dramatic peoples since I don’t have any facial expressions and ability to feel emotions anyway because of the effect of dozens of Botox injected to my face.
I’ll be a super skinny bitch that only travels to the famous shopping spree destinations, purchase art in the name of prestigious and have a lot boy toy on a side, just to feel hips and young. Followed by big sex tape scandals!!!....
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